Sounds about right for me right? I haven’t practised French since the first. Well done me -_-
I completely forgot about it after the first to be honest. The past few weeks have been really busy and I’ve been neglecting to think about things that I was avoiding anyway, and the shit hit the fan, so they say.
I have two signs that I’ve stuck on the side of my PC Tower which sits on my desk. One says “I AM IMPORTANT“. Cheesey, but I forget this too often. I am important, mentally, emotionally and physically, every part of me is important. Something I need to keep remembering and working on. The other is a note from Nick.
I was having a shit time of it a few weeks back, really panicking about money and work and I came home from work to a lovely bouquet of flowers on my desk with a note that said “I Love You. Everything will get better xxx”
And it will. It has to.
I got quite upset and spoke to Nick again yesterday and we’re going to try and find him a placement closer and commutable from Brighton. If we don’t and have to live separately we’ll be left with no money again and will likely end up in debt trying to run two households, two cars and two separate lives on our incomes. We don’t earn enough separately to live apart and especially for me to live where I do, which would mean losing every work contact I have made and trying to start again in a different area of Sussex which would be a nightmare frankly, especially as it’s taken me two years to build up the ones I have, and to be honest, they have exploded over the past few months through the connections I made earlier on so I’d be loathed to leave it now!
So once again I’m starting again. Savings have been raided to pay the bill for my tooth and the car insurance which is coming up and hopefully I’ll be starting on a clean slate come January financially and everything else.